Today is our 20-week anatomy scan ultrasound. If you’ve been following my blog since the start, you know I’ve had a roller coaster of emotions during this first half of the journey. You can read those details here, our announcement, our emotional news and my anxiety is on high. It’s been a rocky ride, but with the help of meditation, friends support and asking for universal signs, I’ve been able to chill a little.
I want to tell you about my Universal sign. After reading Gabby Bernstein’s book, “The Universe Has Your Back,” I became hooked on asking the big “U: for a sign (buy her book here)! In the book, she talks about asking for an owl as a sign from the Universe that her and her husband should buy a particular house. It’s been awhile since I read the book but I remember her talking about not getting – or seeing – the owl for awhile and then, all of a sudden, there was an owl … on the back of a car (I think). Then she started seeing owls everywhere. To her it was a sign: Yes, buy the house! That day, I said to myself, “I am going to do this. I’m going to ask for an Alligator!” I picked an alligator because I never see them! From that day on, my journey with gators began!
Tevi and I were once on a road trip, and I was driving somewhere in Montana. Marcus was out cold snoring. I said in my head, “Universe, if I should open a fitness studio show me an alligator.” Just like that, as I was flipping through the 7 radio stations we were picking up, holy shit, a kid’s station came on with a song talking about Alligators. I looked up and was like “Holy fuck, you’re quick; was that really for me?” Again, in my head I said “How about one more? I mean, so I really know I should do it.” Wow, a few miles ahead and still in shock over the song, there was A BIG BILLBOARD: Gator Motel next exit! Ok! I got it! I’ll open a Fitness studio … this shit is magic! From that moment on, I’ve asked for alligators countless times.
If you read my anxious AF post, then you know my 20-week ultrasound with Ruby was a little overwhelming. The short version of the story:, we got informed that there were two little cysts in her brain that could be nothing or could be an indicator for a stillborn birth. Not something you are amped to hear as a parent. That day turned into the worst day of my life. I called a friend, she told me to meditate, talk to the soul of the baby and look for a sign. Look for a sign. Ok, I need an alligator ASAP to let me know this is a healthy baby. That day and night I was searching high and low for a gator – nothing, nothing, nothing. Then, like magic, I’m gearing up for the gender-reveal workout at SIU and my instructor goes to me, “How was your ultrasound? That’s my favorite ultrasound, they look like little alligators swimming around in there!” Happy tears filled my eyes, chills spiked my body and now mama was thanking the Universe up and down for this healthy, growing baby. At our next appointment, week 28 we got an all clear, cysts were gone.
Last week, leading up to this appointment, I had a terrible dream that this baby has no heartbeat. I’m up at 1 a.m., freaking out, trying to spin my mind to positive, repeating in my head, “Trust Megan, trust.” Alligators, I need alligators! I woke up, told Tevi the dream; he wasn’t thrilled to hear it and we both felt scared. I called my pregnant friend with a doppler to come over and help me find some quick relief. She brought the doppler and did a quick scan: baby was bumping 131 bpm, I could breathe. And then Alligators started showing up: 2 that day, 1 the next day and my vibe turned to positive! I’m going to this appointment with trust. Trusting everything is healthy. Send me some love today!
Here’s a half way Bump’n photo!
Not full, there’s a baby in there. 15 weeks 20 weeks
12-weeks 15- weeks Half Way! 20 weeks.
Can we keep the back sculpted? 12 weeksplease! Ruby does my butt look big? 15 weeks Halfway there! 20 weeks
